Lots of interesting things to ponder lately.
I think after the not-so-positive influence on my attitude that occurred this summer at the hands of my extensive hours of employment, I began to glorify life at college more than I should have. Although I knew better, I allowed my mind to fabricate the idea that being back at JBU would solve any and all problems – that it would be a sort of Eutopia. I’m not gonna lie – it’s a heck of a lot of fun, and overall I’m having an awesome time. But I’m reminded that nothing and no one is perfect. No matter who you’re with or what situation you’re in, sometimes you can’t help but think, “This could be better.” I don’t want to live with that type of attitude, because then you don’t enjoy where you’re at. I’m working on readjusting my expectations, and hopefully my attitude in general.
As silly as this sounds, my single biggest struggle so far in readjusting to college life has been having free time. Sometimes I hate it. I hate not having anything to do for several hours. This at first made very little sense to me, but after some thought, I think I’m starting to understand what’s going on. When I had free time this summer, it was usually for only an hour or two (or less) each day. When I had that free time, I still had plans for how I was going to use it. Even if the plans simply involved sitting on the couch and resting for a while, chatting with Dri, watching TV with my family, and then going to bed…I still had purposely planned that out as what I wanted to do with my time. Now I have plenty of time on my hands with no plan…and it instantly makes me bored and somewhat depressed. I’m actually very glad that I’ll be starting in with work next week.
I miss my family more this year than last year, which again was strange to me at first. I think it had something to do with the fact that I really didn’t get to spend much time with them this summer either.
All that said, please don’t get the wrong idea. Life is going awesomely, and I can’t wait to see what’s going to happen next.
Later.
Give it time and prayer.