Just a Thought…

Is it just me or do you find it ironic that it seems like many of the lonliest moments in your life are when you are surrounded by people? Why does it work like that? You have good friends around you, people that care, but you feel this kind of emptiness that seems to be telling you, “Go back to your dorm room and sit in front of your computer screen and check your e-mail every twenty seconds, maybe someone will spontaneously think of you.” Well, if you’re a college student maybe it’d tell you that. If you’re an adult or if you’re like two years old maybe not.

But seriously why do I always have this retarded expectation that some random person is going to send me a piece of mail for no special reason? I never do it for anyone else. Why doesn’t that person say hi when they walk by me? Ummm, yeah Ansen. Why didn’t you say hi to them?

I think we all desire to be loved, but sometimes it can morph from that into a selfishness of sorts. Tonight someone did randomly call me just to talk, which was cool. So it happens. And it feels good when it does. I just wish I was better at providing other people with what I would want for myself. I’m so bad at following up or just calling people or writing an e-mail to someone. Frustrating. A side note…music rocks. There’s nothing to help you get in a better mood faster than listening to some awesome music.

Anyway…sorry for my seriousness. I promise I won’t make it a habit. As far as general life updates go…life is good.

– I watched a movie at Mayfield w/ some people tonight.
– I then hung out with a couple girls over at North (which I’d never really spent any time in before). Exciting.
– The “Mock Rock” competetion was tonight as well. People got up and did lip syncs to various songs. It was highly entertaining.
– Andrew is gone camping. Room to myself for the night (first time maybe?).
– Jeremiah (Josh’s roomate) has moved to North, so Josh has his room alone till next semester, at which time his roomate from last year will move in.
– TOMORROW IS SATURDAY!!