I know I said I was going to try to be more optimistic…but sometimes there are times that require a certain somberness.
Things are not going well for me right now. I’m having a very hard time motivating myself for work. My parens have been especially encouraging as of late…which helps, but it’s still become quite difficult. Every morning it gets harder to get up. I have a lot of other things on my mind right now too…
Mostly…Matthew. He found out today that he has cancer…Hodgkin’s disease, specifically. There’s a good recovery rate for it, so we think he’s gonna be ok, but he has surgery on Thursday to remove a lymph node for testing, and then he will have to begin chemotherapy, which could be a several month process.
This is my best friend in the whole world…the closest friend and confidant I’ve ever had. I feel like I know everything about him, and he knows everything about me. I haven’t known any single person other than family members for a longer amount of time. If ever the phrase “I love you man!” fit a relationship…it’s ours. And this news…even though it’s better than it could’ve potentially been if he had another type of cancer…is still crushing. Pray for him, please. Pray also for his family, his girlfriend, myself, and his other friends. Pray for comfort and strength, and most of all, healing.
Thanks.
Definitely.
I am so sorry about Matt. I will pray and keep all of you guys in my thoughts.
And now I have to be a poop-head or at least that’s what I feel like I am going to do.
1) I agree with you about what you said about relationships. However, I don’t think people should be more important than anyone else in your life just more prominent. Everyone I know is important to me and I would do anything for every single one of them.
2) I actually made no claim that all guys do that in the original number two (just my dad- haha) and it kind of turned into a bigger group in Dri’s interpretation. I was making a joke by having natural in quotes because I really don’t think it is a natural gender role.
3) This was kind of a repeat of number one in my mind which is basically a way saying that people should treat each other the way they want to be treated.
4) I actually hate man-haters (that’s kind of weird) and if I was a man-hater then that would pretty much mean I hate God which I don’t so that would be whack. Eventually, I will reveal my actual “attack” and what was the real purpose of this random entry. Plus, I think if I dislike a gender, it is girls and soon plan on writing a entry about how they are their own worst enemies by way of “natural gender roles” (hahahaha). I may not be alive for very long after that…
Anyway, I hope everything is going okay and I can’t wait to see you the twenty-third at the cocktail party. Woo-hoo!
hey ansen. i was definitely surprised to read what i did. i actually read your entry last night, and didnt know what to say. im sorry that you have to go through this, and that it is your best friend. i will be sure to be praying for matthew, his family, and for you as well. hope you have a good week! don’t work too hard. see ya…