I thought it’d be fitting to end my last night at JBU with a blog post…much like how I began my first day here.
My last post said I was sad. And while that’s still true to some extent, I feel more of a mixed bag of emotions now. In fact, I can’t really decide how I feel at all.
Sitting in my room and looking around at the now bare walls and the lack of anything anywhere makes me sad. The rooms look so much bigger and so much less inviting this way. The suite common area is completely empty as well. Perfectly clean too. It feels like we grabbed our home and shook all the personality out of it. All the memories made in that room this year seem to be very distant now, slipping into the past with the vanished furniture and posters.
The thought of leaving Dri makes me sad. Seeing Dri sad about leaving makes me more sad. I don’t think I’ve ever really felt this way before – missing someone so severely when we haven’t even parted yet. And even though I know I already have plans to maybe see her on the 11th and on the 2nd of June, right now the weight of our goodbye is close to unbearable. It seems like we will be apart for forever.
My first few posts when arriving at JBU convey nothing but excitement and anticipation. I can’t say that I was let down in any way by my experience. Sure…there were times that weren’t especially spectacular, but if there weren’t those times how could we properly appreciate those timeless ones you’ll never forget?
Sure a part of me is sad, but I also feel very much content. Content that this has been one of the best years of my life. I lived it well, and as a whole…I have no regrets. But anticipation too. Next year can be even better. I’m already excited to see what it’ll hold and to take advantage of all the great things it will offer me.
So…summer. Am I excited to work so much? No. Do I want to leave JBU? No. But I need to leave, and I need to work, and it’ll be ok. I have a wonderful family that I can’t wait to spend as much time as I can with. I have two cats that will let me use them as a pillow when I’m tired from work.
I have a God that cares about me…and because of that…I know things are going to turn out not just ok…but great. And I’m excited to watch that unfold these next three months.
Oh…and make sure you keep reading. Cause I’m going to write all about it! :)
You are one crazy kid. I’m glad that your time at JBU was so awesome for you! I hope that the summer is short but awesome and that you get an even better year next time around!
hey, well i am a bit sadden that you are sad to leave. but i guess it shows that you really love it there. Yeah, I have two weeks left and then i too will leave school and go to a home that seems a stranger. maybe because ive only been there twice or maybe because ive spent more time at school than at home. have a great summer and try not to miss your girlfriend too much. have a good one
Hey, cute pics! ;) Just letting you know I’ve deleted my blog so you can take me off the Dead Blogs list… Thanks for the listing, though!
I probably shouldn’t tell you this… ’cause it’ll make you sad… but I miss you soooo much… And right now I can’t really see what I’m typing b/c I’m crying my eyes out. Who knew it could be so hard to leave someone? I don’t even know what to say now… I miss you.
Ansen, I realize that I am no replacement for Amandria. I do not look nearly as good, and if we held hands we would both become psychologically altered and end up committing suicide… but I’m here. And you’re back. Let’s talk of things and eat Andrew’s food- he makes excellent patty melts
-Abe