I’m often very stoic about situations, but it seems that of late my emotions have been getting the best of me. Like today for example.
Today was a day of alternating highs and lows, and honestly, I don’t care for those types of days much. I’d much rather try to keep myself in check emotionally and not be caught in stupid mood swings.
The day was turning ugly real early: when I woke up.
Ok, that sounded really dark. I don’t hate myself. Waking up was not the issue, the issue was that when I woke up I couldn’t get air through my nostrils and my voice didn’t speak when I asked it to. Bad voice.
What made things even worse is that my voice was already tired from singing for Spiritual Emphasis Week all…well…week, and now I had to sing singing valentines to about 45 little elementry school kids. Oh, and then I had to sing for Spiritual Emphasis Week.
Things were a little bit up because I didn’t have to go to class…but that honestly didn’t make me feel a lot better.
Other bad things happening today? Matthew and I losing our tempers very quickly (not at each other just to clarify), getting a fortune-cookie from the Chinese restaurant that made it sound like I was gay (“You are the star of hope in his world” – what the heck kind of a fortune is that?!?), going to a basketball game and not talking to people and having them not talk to me back and then feeling depressed and sorry for myself, which I shouldn’t do. Then having to go directly after the b-ball game and not getting to do anything afterwards. Not like they would have wanted me to g….ba ba ba bop! Stop that! No feeling sorry for myself.
But like I said, there were good things too. First, settling some differences and ending some quarrels. It was really encouraging to have someone who only the day before threw a ball at the band during worship at school come up by his own choice to apologize in person. It was also very encouraging to put the silliness that happened yesterday in the past by getting a very kind e-mail from someone (curse my awfulness at being vague). Oh well. It least everyone knows we’re on friendly terms now.
Anyway, I suppose I should wrap this thing up. I’m not really going anywhere with this. I’m just sitting here all by my lonesome self while others are out having fun, coldly typing words onto this box in front of me…grrr! SNAP OUT OF IT ANSEN!
UPDATE: 12:03 – Now I’m back up again because of a cool conversation with a cool person (more vagueness)…
Hey man, if I was at the game longer than 2 minutes, I would have talked to you. But I was only at school to pick my sister up so sadly, i only stayed to listen to Nicole and see Gabe get the first basket. yeah. you could always not not-talk to people, meanin, talk to them. anyway. goodnight.
It’s not like life isn’t like this.